All In

Here in the air flying off to Costa Rica, I write this. 

If I am honest planes make me a little ..spaz-like. 

I have never loved flying; even though, I have flown a multitude of times. My seat was next to the sweetest couple heading to Ecuador that said they would be praying over our endeavors. They even took one of my prayer cards, and I pray it leads to an even bigger revelation from God of this incredible ministry. I thank God for that sweet encouragement from a stranger.

As my somewhat anxious nerves set in during taking off, I asked Jesus to talk to me. And He hit me with it…. 

“Kelsey, give up the safety nets.”

I love feeling safe. Hence, the whole not liking to fly thing..There is no net. I look all over my life and see the ones I have created for myself. My thought process “Lord, I am giving this to you and surrendering; but in case it does not work out I have that other thing going.”

I do not want to process things, as such, anymore.

Jesus, I am all in. 

I am all in with as many breaths that you give me and days that you wake me. 

Deuteronomy 6:5 says, “thou shalt love the Lord thy God with ALL thine heart, with ALL thy soul, and with ALL thy might.”

Next time I am anxious instead of leaning back into my safety net … I want all in. I want God to be able to move me wherever He needs and be able to say, “I can count on you to fully let the Spirit lead you and say ‘Yes’ to whatever need there is.” I want to fully trust You, God.

Back when I started funding for this race. The Lord moved me to fully commit by over and over telling me ..”Kel, we can go so much deeper. I have so much more for you to experience to make you look more like Me (a making and breaking process).”

My desire for the Lord has always been to recklessly abandoned to truly be a disciple not just a follower. 

That is true for every precious one of you, today. You are seen and heard by the Father. He has much in store for you (Jeremiah 29:11). Pray and ask Him how you can go deeper. I do not know who around you or what experiences have brought you to this place of needing to have a safety net as myself; but I do know we have a God who is the absolute ONLY ONE who can catch our every fall. 

Not only, can He catch you, but the Bible tells us He longs too. He longs to pick you up and place you back on your feet. And guess what! He will do it again and again!

 Lord, I pray to fully let you catch me today and everyday. 

Lord, give me that child-like faith. When You say jump, I jump. When You say Be still, I silence the noise. 

I will make room for You alone not for the doubts and fears . 

Thy Will be done not my own. 

Here again I lay down the things I continue to pick back up. 

Thank you, Lord, for Your patience. 

Man, You are a patient God! I love you. 

Father, remind me that the safest place to be is in the shadow of Your Almighty. 

I ask You, Lord, to keep my hands wide open and my heart’s desire to go deeper and deeper with every new day. 

-Your Beloved, Kel  

Don’t worry, Mom♥

Promise not to be too reckless just recklessly abandoned as the Lord leads. Also, I want you to know my mom is my biggest blessing and just the best person! Love you, Mom!