God, Why

“Pray as though everything depended on God. Work as though everything depended on you.”

Living life by this motto, I started searching for a second job back earlier this year when my Starbucks store had to close due to Covid. I prayed to God asking Him to open the door for something that would grow my faith and would continue preparing me for this World Race;

Man! did He ever answer that prayer!

The Billy Graham Association has a 24/7 prayer line that was started this year due to the many uncertainties present. A voice of Hope in the midst of this difficult season that provides people with a number they can call for prayers. This line ultimately was put in place to lead people to the truth of God’s Love.

Through this opportunity to serve as a prayer associate at BGEA God has taught me so much. I wish I could just share with you the highs: The many who have been brought to Christ; The many who have heard the name ‘Jesus’ for the very first time; The many who have been able to receive hope and encouragement; The many who just needed a listening ear and a prayer partner; The many who God allowed me to share His truth about how much He loves them!

But to be honest with you there have been many lows for myself and many moments of defeat.

Callers who I have felt the sting of their devastation in my own heart. Callers who have lost so much that they barely can get the words out to even tell their stories. Callers who have projected their anger which is just evidence of how truly hurt their hearts are. Callers who are lonely and afraid. Callers who are depressed and see no point in life.

I have never been one to ask God why; But here the past few months I have found myself saying, “God… Why?”

I honestly hate admitting this. Admitting that I have turned to my Creator and have doubted Him.

But then GOD with His goodness reaches down. I have felt His gentle whisper in the dead of night saying, “Kelsey, it is okay to doubt. To not be okay. To ask me why. But just remember WHO I AM. Remember MY TRUTH. Remember MY CHARACTER.“

I am sharing this personal time that God is growing me through to encourage you with whatever you are facing. It is okay to be at a point where you just come to God with a heart that is deeply discouraged and with tears saying, “God, help me.”

When I don’t have the words, God has always brought me to this scripture. 

Psalm 46 “God is our Refuge and Strength, a very present help in trouble.”

This scripture passage goes on to say, “We will not fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried away; though the waters roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake.”

Vs. 5, “God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved.”

I thank God for bringing me back to His Truth. To His Character. His Trustworthiness. I thank Him for reminding me my job is not to save or rescue anyone; for I am weak, but to make straight the way to Him, my Savior.

In my humanity I still wish I could have all the answers to Why. “Why is God allowing this.” “Why is God not coming to recue me?”

But I will DECLARE with every breath that He has given me HE IS GOOD. He has made a way when there was no way, and He will continue to make a way if we allow Him too.

Friends, will you declare this with me today? HIS GOODNESS. HIS CHARACTER. There is a whole world out there in need for someone to look them in their eyes and tell them they are not forsaken.

They are loved.