God’s Smile

Isaiah 42:1 “Behold my servant, whom I uphold: mine elect, in whom my soul delighteth”

God delights in me. This is hard to imagine. Delight is defined as, “a high degree of gratification or extreme satisfaction.”

Isaiah uses this word to describe God’s emotion towards His children. Showing just how deeply the Father loves us.

I felt such delight… God smiling down on me this past Sunday.

Not for anything I did or could have done. But, for the acknowledgment and public surrender for what He has done for me.

Recently while reading through each Gospel the Lord burdened my heart with Jesus’ words when He says, “Go and be baptized.” In my head I kept asking.. God, are you sure? What will people think after years of being saved yet just now getting baptized. Then God struck the final chord in my heart when I had the privilege of encountering many of my teammates standing boldly to be baptized. Beautifully they acknowledged God’s grace over their lives. Through each testament of faith, one could feel God’s all consuming Love so present. We the body of Christ are being daily transformed; proclaiming such transformation is never something to be ashamed of.

This past Sunday I was blessed with the opportunity to stand boldly before the body of Christ and declare His goodness. It was the sweetest of moments with Jesus. There were a 100-plus people there, but it seemed to be just me before my Savior reminiscing through His tremendous grace over my life.

I have believed in God ever since I was a little girl. I remember my mom rocking me with tears running down my 6-year-old face while I was physically trying to open the door to my heart so God would be able to come in (as if there was a way to do such a thing). What precious moments of fear these were when I grasped that I had a Creator. I thank God for the awareness of Him from such a young age. However, God would not become personal to me until later. I regret all those days that I missed it__ I missed Him. As I stood sharing His provision, I felt His Love like never before that has walked with me every step of the journey. I thank God for this moment to outwardly proclaim the inward work God has done in and through me. I pray for God to always keep me in this moment. This moment led me to ponder over why two people who are in love who know they want to spend the rest of their lives with each other have a wedding. Because they want to declare and share the love they have! I am forever grateful for this day, 11/29/2020, in which I declared and shared the love I have for my Savior. I vow to declare such with every breath given to me. The journey is not meant to be easy. Thank God for His daily grace! Even if it is ugly, painful; even if the healing never comes; even if my dreams come undone.

God, I have You. I choose Your Love. I thank you for choosing me.

These words I shared and vowed to my Bestfriend Sunday.

I Vow to give You my ‘Yes’ daily, Lord

I vow to trust you, Lord.

I vow to cling to your truth, Lord.

When I fall as I often do, I vow to fall into Your Loving arms.

I vow to live only to die to myself daily.

I vow to passionately pursue for Your Kingdom

I vow to wholeheartedly surrender every part of my life.

Jesus, thank you for saving my soul, loving me, and daily transforming me.

Your Beloved, Kel